Wednesday, December 1, 2010


Have you ever realized how much you love something right before it is taken away?  For example, right before you go to get your hair cut, you start wondering if you really should get it cut. Something similiar is happening to me, and I am feeling pretty guilty.  Over the last month I have become much closer to a neighbor of mine. I feel awful that this person has lived so close to me for the last year and because I wasn't comfortable walking over and knocking on her door, we didn't really hang out until now.  While I have quite a few friends that I have become much closer to over facebook and IM, I don't have many really close female friends and I hate leaving any of them.
So...these are my resolutions--a toast of sorts to a hopefully much fuller future.
This is to stepping out of the box.  This is to expanding those circles of friendship. This is to spending enough time around people to make informed decisions.  May we all be blerssed with amazing friends, and learn to love more and judge less.

The changes continue:
The house is pretty much completely packed, and we are the proud new owners of a Honda CRV and have a new house.  It's been a big week, and with the moving truck coming in 2 days, it doesn't look like it will get less hectic.  Tomorrow is my absolute last day with the girl I watch. It is going to kill a piece of me to leave her.  I can't be a nanny anymore. I love them too much.  It is officially time to have my own.  Hopefully it happens soon.  I am as ready as I will ever be!

How do you prevent yourself from feeling that guilt of not having done enough and lost opportunities?  Do you take a c'est la vie attitude towards life, or lay in bed at night and wonder 'what if?'

1 comment:

  1. At the end of the day, you can only do so much. and what you did do, will have to be enough. That's what I say.

    I should spend more time with Bridget, I should see my grandma more, I should do many things. How many things do you think I "started" doing in RI before I left? making connections with folks, anticipating making some changes....and really did nothing.


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